I wonder how many adverts I see a day. One day i would like to keep a tally of online and real life adverts I see on a normal day.
I feel like capitalism just squeezes you and others for money and ‘productivity’ that only means what you are worth monetarily. i feel crushing.
I would like to be more spiritual. more ‘aware’ or ‘mindful’ may come into it too. but the idea that there is a cause and effect, that what you send out to the universe you will get back.
I can’t wait or this house buying to be over – it’s a lot of stress and all the paperwork is eating at me. I want to be carefree, to enjoy time not stress and worry.
Need to incorporate more relaxing and enjoyable activities onto the day – 10 minute meditation, smoking…or similar, really enjoy and smell the coffee, interact and spend time with people.
Also plan days of chill – surfing, national trust, long times with friends.
Really connect to that inner darkness, not allow it to overtake or overwhelm me but to be conscious if and let it have a conversation and space to grow and develop.
I want to search for a new job, my ‘dream job’ but not to get too into it at the moment.
a lot on my plate – buying a home- paperwork – insurances
delete youtube, reddit. sucks power and energy and is a distraction. conflict creates hype and drama and vies for your attention. naturally we may not want to see exciting/dangerous/stimulous things but our brains are hard wired to pay attention to it. one cannot live peacefully in that state of mind. I have to give focus to the calm too and live in that moment as much as possible, and leave the drama for when drama is needed.